we're still adjusting to things around here. some days go smoothly while others i feel like i spread myself thin. sometimes so thin i forget to do normal things like showering or eating. yesterday around 4:30 p.m. i realized i hadn't eaten anything which clearly, is not a good idea. i also raised my voice a few times at arguing siblings, ignored my dirty house and all of the mess, forgot to do a couple of things that i was not supposed to forget to do... i might have even thought about letting this naughty, baby toy chewing, peeing on the floor, whining pug out the front door to find a new home for herself... it was one of those days. i could write out a laundry list of all the things that went wrong for you but i won't. i did end up ditching my dinner plans because i forgot to thaw the chicken and took everyone out to a fun restaurant. i also said "screw my deadline, i'll do it later" and spent the rest of my evening relaxing with my family. i have decided to slow things down a bit. to take time outs, to breathe.
this morning i sat down and enjoyed a nice breakfast with the kids. instead of starting school right away we spent some time relaxing, chatting and playing with the baby in the living room. when she went down for her nap we started school and then had snack time together... the day went on like that. it's interesting what a relaxed pace and a little step or two backwards can do for ones sanity. the next nine days will be a challenge. aubrey will be out of town on business and i will be doing things solo around here. but i think if i can remember to slow it all down, to take breaks and do things one task at a time that i can keep a happy home.